may 11 2025

what to do, what to do…
to quit or to re-frame?
the former looks like freedom but the anger is not far away
the latter looks like a lot of work with no pot of gold at the end
and I want the pot - a big, fat, juicy one
the love of the game isn’t enough for me anymore
I need so much more if I’m being real
money and meaning
because a girl just wants to have fun

sometimes I feel like I’m pulling at the earth from somewhere deep inside me,
like I’ve got my nails sunk into the atomic particles of it all and I’m eating everything until
I get what I want
a streak of arrogance slips from under my tongue
hot venom
sweet revenge
a waste of time
these bitches is not [redacted]
they don’t know the meaning of anything
they cannot see the star